How?

The Bible is so clear on the importance of taking every thought captive; thinking on the right things; being transformed in our minds; etc... How do I do it with lasting change? I feel like lately I'm totally having a full blown war inside between flesh and spirit... I know what's right, the Holy Spirit convicts me and leads me... but honestly over the last several weeks I've been warring inside to do what I know is right versus what I want to do. For the most part I've always found it pretty easy to do what God says, because I love to please Him, I love Him! So why now is it that I want to run away and hide from all the "pressure" that goes on when we say yes to Jesus? Why after 7 years does this craziness go on inside of me? I know deep down I want all He wants for me, I know I don't want to walk away from Him... but why now so much confusion? I'm in the Word everyday more than once... I pray constantly... I'm involved in Church... I have great spirit filled friends... so why? So anyways... any great words of wisdom would be much appreciated...

Stained Glass Masquerade by Casting Crowns:

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they’ll soon discover
That I don’t belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything’s okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I’ll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

*Chorus*
Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who’s been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who’s traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

Chorus x2

Well if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small

Hmmm I've Been Thinking....

I don't use this blogger site much anymore because I've gotten a myspace account. It's funny I had gotten a myspace for a couple weeks then deleted it because of all the junk I've found on there... but decided to have another one to keep track of what my kids are doing on the site. And I must say I'm pretty glad I did! It's easy as Christians to want to flee from everything that doesn't scream out Jesus or Church... but if we as Christians never leave our comfortable safe place how will they (the lost) ever hear and know about this Jesus we claim to love so much! Everyone who stumbles on my blog on this site is a "church" person... on myspace it's the opposite! I've had so many people of all walks of life read my blogs on there and view my profile! In a very short time span of like 3 months I've had over 1000 people view my blogs and site! I've had the opportunity to share God's love with a homosexual man whom I encouraged to attend a Focus on the Family conference about Homosexuality and he did...he still struggles but its a huge step toward his freedom! I've run into old friends who I used to party with and get into trouble with and I've been able to share Jesus with them! It's a flawed website with more bad than good... but ya know what time is short before Jesus returns... and the world is out there dying without a savior! Do we continue to hide in the safety of our churches and circles of christian friends or do we do what Jesus did and love the people in the world? It's for sure a fine line... we aren't to just hang with the world or we'll fall... but we aren't to hide from them in fear! I don't want to stand at the White Throne Judgement with anyone being judged looking my way saying hey you knew? why didn't you tell me?! I'll end this post with a song called My Jesus by Todd Agnew:

Which Jesus do you follow?
Which Jesus do you serve?
If Ephesians says to imitate Christ
Then why do you look so much like the world?

Cause my Jesus bled and died
He spent His time with thieves and liars
He loved the poor and accosted the arrogant
So which one do you want to be?

Blessed are the poor in spirit
Or do we pray to be blessed with the wealth of this land
Blessed are they that hunger and thirst for righteousness
Or do we ache for another taste of this world of shifting sand

Cause my Jesus bled and died for my sins
He spent His time with thieves and sluts and liars
He loved the poor and accosted the rich
So which one do you want to be?

Who is this that you follow
This picture of the American dream
If Jesus was here would you walk right by on the other side or fall down and worship at His holy feet

Pretty blue eyes and curly brown hair and a clear complexion
Is how you see Him as He dies for Your sins
But the Word says He was battered and scarred
Or did you miss that part
Sometimes I doubt we'd recognize Him

Cause my Jesus bled and died
He spent His time with thieves and the least of these
He loved the poor and accosted the comfortable
So which one do you want to be?

Cause my Jesus would never be accepted in my church
The blood and dirt on His feet would stain the carpet
But He reaches for the hurting and despised the proud
I think He'd prefer Beale St. to the stained glass crowd
And I know that He can hear me if I cry out loud

I want to be like my Jesus!
I want to be like my Jesus!

Not a posterchild for American prosperity, but like my Jesus
You see I'm tired of living for success and popularity
I want to be like my Jesus but I'm not sure what that means to be like You Jesus
Cause You said to live like You, love like You but then You died for me
Can I be like You Jesus?
I want to be like my Jesus